29 june

I'm still finding my answer today.I'm still moody today. but once i think of the image tat we're gonna when through, i smile stright away. I hanged wit Bibi wong and Yumiko Chin today. I'm so exiceted when i knew tat we're gonna have many fun after school.But Someone just FFk me. its ok, after lunch. we walked around, and we laugh loudly as if the mall was ours. LOL.After tat we feel bored, nothing to buy then we when starbucks. muahahahaha. bought some drinks.then it starts to rain. and the fun part is coming.when we're on the taxi, we took many picture, but all failed, cause vy ugly. LOL. then when we reached to school, its raining cat and dogs. and we rush down from the car.laughing non stop.then we run from the front door to the canteen and we're all wet. OMG everyone is look at us. LOL. they was like, OMG what happened to this three crazy girl? hmm. mental ke? but to us it means alot to us. On the way while we're running, our laughter was the most happiest part in the whole story. i love it freaking much.I miss these days wit u guys. hahahahah. Its beed so long i have not seen myself laughing like tat. non stop. Today was fun. And now i'm going 'big tree leg' with them this friday. i cant wait to eat wit them and shared my everything to them.

U're so in deep shit!

Why do u lie ? I dont understand.I'm try all my best to find something to keep away the lies, but i really cant find a single reason,why u lie to me. why dont u just tell me the truth? I heard so many things today, and i cried after i heard everything. Its all crap! U just broke my heart into peacses. I hate u. I seriously cant accept what u did. i just got cheated by u, I'm like a 5 year old girl to u. A lie after a lie, what lies do u wan to tell me now ? Just tell, i'm really very tired talking to u. I really dont understand.

27 June

Woke up around 7.51.. getting ready for the movies, but i'm not tat excited at all.. Its just a normal date wit my sister,casue she's leavin' tomorrow. then i when Jusco around 10 something, followed my dad to the market and bought milk. After my dad left, we meet my sister's friend at the cinema.then i when in with the 3D glasess. IDK why, when i was watching,i'm not really paying attention about it. my mind is full of rubbish. I really wan to kill myself, i really can't help myself. i really hate u alot. I'm crying through the whole week. i'm tired. i dont wan to cry.i really dont wan to care what u wan to do. i dont even whan to know what's going on wit u.three days. mean alot to me. I dont even get a single msg from u. yea!ur phone is out of crited, but i just cant stop angryin u. Its really my problem.The problem starts from me.I'm the one who casue so many trouble.I'm so troublesom. I'm wasting ur time my time. wasting everybody's time. When i in the cinema, i was thinkin' should i wait for the answer? or not ? and now i think, i dont need the answer anymore. i'm so naive, who ever dreamed for a prince charming? I'm so so so childish. The last thing, i dont hope to get a single msg or a word from u. Just...I dont wanna talk about it anymore.

Regret ? or u still love me like usual?

Actually,my mood was very bad these days. I just dont know whats is in my head. Actually, i love u so so much.but i just dont know how to explain it to u. U just dont know how much i hate it when we quarrel, and now i found i dont even have feelings after we quarrel. I really dont wan this feeling, i wan to cry, i wan to feel how much i love u. And now i just wan to know did u regret after be with me? I really wan to know the answer. maybe send me a msg ?I'm waiting.

Strawberry

Do i love strawberry? Yes i think do. I dun know why, this few days i'm so desprated to eat strawberrys..I know I'm wried,Ignore* I'm gonna clean my room now. or maybe reorganise it. IDK. My make up, maybe i bought too much.i had no more spaces to put it. so,i gonna get a new table,name'make up table 2' hahahah sounds wired. I need to find a cloth, i need to repack my cupboard,throw all the cloths tat i dun wear.some spaces to put my bags or maybe shoes.. I think i must get going already. So,i'll see u later <3 XOXO

worst day ever!

I'm back today.. just to spirited out all my feeling here. I'm tired to tell u how i feel. how unhappy i am. how i hate it! no point telling u and u are not willing to cheer me up, all u know is call me to cheer up. Do u know how much i hate u when u call me to cheer up? idk how to say this but, I really hate u now. I hate u but i still love u at the same time. Sometimes I really hate myself for loving u so deep, becasue onces we quarrel, I surely cry like hell. I really dun like crying.expecially crying because of u! Idk what can i do now. i really dont know.

this is where i belong

this is where i belong. i like to stay here but not my real world. Here had no lies. just me everything but me.i like to stay alone right now.. But now .i dun even wan to write all my sadness here. I've lost everything i wanted. Good bye to everything .

treas :(

Its 9.26am rigth now..i'm crying. i read these msg again.i cant control my tears.it keep on rowing down..

我，那又怎样？

我就是没脑。
我幼稚。
我懒。
我爱发脾气。
我爱被骗。
我爱被利用。
我爱发神经。
哪又怎样？

你说我不尊重你的朋友。那你又尊重过我的吗？
你说你有为我想过，
那为什么你不知道我生气什么？
我在吃醋你知道么？
我有多不喜欢你知道吗？
我有多讨厌你知道吗？
我有多痛你知道吗？
我哭你知道吗？

每一次在我最需要你的时候？
你在哪里？
我需要肩膀的时候你又在哪里？
为什么每次错的都是我？
难道你一点错也没有吗？

我很讨厌你！

我放弃了/3

我，
累了。
对着你。。
我不知道要做什么。
我不敢看着你了。
我怕我一看见你我的眼泪就不断的掉。


从现在起，
我不会再要你一秒的时间。
你说得对。你不会每次都陪我。
你一个星期不找我也没关系了。。。
你三个月不找我也没关系。
我不会烦你，。


我是天真，
我是不爱读书，
我不像你，
有一个酱聪明的头脑，
我配不起你，
我做什么都是错的。
你也不属要这样跟我说话。


我就设那样。一句不喜欢就行了。
我不管你怎样想。我只会跟着我的心走。


我不会再跟你投诉我不喜欢谁，我喜欢谁。
到了现在我才知道你想听。
我不会再跟你说这些对你来讲很没脑的东西了。
我不会在控制你了。
恭喜你，你自由了。