I love U

Finally,i got myself awake.i use to ba a girl who's vy stupid.brainless.useless.everyting.I always worrier about wat i'm going to do after this 8 month.8 month passes vy fast!Now i turn back and think.It's really vy funny.Found myself stupid crying for nothing.Well.There/s just a ways to make me feel better,although it's a stupid idea!.but i prefer to do it tis way.You're the first boy tat i love u the most and couldn't live without.this four month was really great.being wit u was the right think i had ever did in my life.loving u was the same too.I had never seen myself loving someone tat deep.Really tat's unbelievable.And i din even found a person who excatly like meI love you was just like breathing.How can i stop it? I realy believe tat our love can last forever.really can.After tis 8 month,u should be at somewhere for away from meAnd i really believe tat ur heart will remain by my seid,althought you're far away from me.I know it's hard for me to be strong all by myself.but i'll try my best to do it just for u.Sometime its really vy hard for me to wait for someone tat long.But i promise i'll wait for u.now tis 8 month.is the right time to be alwas by ur side.i'll never ever leave u baby..I love u an i need u.i really hope tat u know tat, You know you're my drug and i'm so addicted.I love u forever and always.

Need to learn to be strong cindy♥

时间，一天一天的过。也该长大的。不可以什么都依靠这他。就算他不在你身边。你也可以好好的过。现在慢慢的习惯，以后就不会酱辛苦了。不可以每天动不动就掉眼泪。。就算多不开心，都要笑着面对。相信你一定可以的。加油♥

Missing Jeffrey once again!

This afternoon,while i was waiting till its 7pm.so i could chat wit my baby! It was hard to pass. I miss him and i need him. After a MSG and a MSG.. I'm still waiting. Dun know why.today's feeling was so wired.I suddenly felt tat i love Jeffrey even deeper.i was thinking about him the whole day like every single minute. Its kinda wired.I usually dun miss him tat much. Not tat i dun miss him. Is tat i miss him like randomly not like every second. cant get wat I'm thinking. I dun even understand wat i wan now.I just know tat i need him.I wan him now..treas rowing down again. I miss him.thinking stupid question again. sometime i really hate myself for doing all tis i just cant get it. I'm gonna get crazy one day.trust me

And now its gonna be 8pm.he's not home yet. No mood to do homework.getting lazy and lazier.Slap me pls! Pmr is coming and what am i doing? still have many time to blog...*slap*


I miss u Jeffrey.like a always do.
U miss me ?
XOXO

Baby

You're the laughter in my life.

No longer

We need to think about our future.yup!we have to! this few days I felt tat there is not much time for me to see jeffrey.few monts later,he's gonna be 18 and he had to go somewhere far away from me...No one teach me how to do math. No pui me chat..No one will cheer my up when i was down...I cant even think or see after tis year..How can i live witout jeffrey ? Suddently pop up in my mind tis morning.i was really wondering, what will happened to my.. Asking kinda of stupid question...

My Love

In my live.i tot tat i will just love jeffrey deep and vy much, and there is no one can take his place !But i found not only i cant live without jeffrey♥I found two person in my live tat i cant live without too...ist BIBI & YUMIKO..i love them just like how i love jeffrey♥ I found tat in my life tat i love them the most was jeffrey bibi yumiko. and it will not change♥

Soulmate♥

♥Damn best Friend

No matter wat happeneds to us.Our friendship will still there♥

i Love You :)

Funs♥

I knew we are going to have so much fun this friday♥..But i really hope tat my mom din check up on me...i'll will be no mood on tat day or maybe not going even..hahaha...Whatever..Well..meeting Jeffrey tis friday...finally i got the chance to see him..i miss him like every single day! I promise i'll be there in time on friday♥ I'm not gonna ffk u bi and miko...take many picture♥ hahah miko.u're not going to get black..haha we are taking taxi...so tis time! who is going to pay? hahha LOL!!!

I love u

xoxo

jealous♥

I know i might get jealous if i keep reading his blog...but i still encourge to read it...i know i'm a stupid hard bone! Know i'm gonna get jealous but i still wan to see it..Sometimes really hate myself for doing all tis...Everytime i get jealous i'll sure quarrel wit him..no matter how many times i promise not to quarrel at last i cant do it...just because of JEALOUS!! Saw it today...the vy first Blog...i saw two ring...Yeah jealous again cindy..Fucked up please! Stop reading his blog..u're gonna die by lack of tears!Please just to keep urself happy...

Studying♥

I love Him

He's everything to me.

So

I Love Him ♥

18/4/10

I felt like antagnising someone

hope its not u♥

I Love You

Jeffrey♥

i miss u♥

I Miss You Jeffrey Ong♥

wish u were here...

Last Night♥

Last night,was a wonderful night.♥ was chatting wit my sister by msn...she was asking wat song am i finding? so i told her .*what you waiting for-mizz nina*i cant find it..then chat chat chat...then i sak ask her could she give me her blog add..i wan to see it..

Jamie:no
Cindy:Why?
Jamie:cause its private ==
Cindy: u got private?i knew everything about u.
Jamie: no u dun know.
Cindy yes i know. just give it!
Jamie: ok wait.

hahaha then she type type type...then call me give her my add email..all all...
then i see her blog...omg! She when lagoon wit out me ...plying having so much fun wit her friends...Yeah..i could feel tat she had change alot...really alot...Its not the old jamie...now she dun even care wat ppl says about her or wat.she just be her ownself... damn tough bitch!!

Then i was telling her about wat my mom did in the morning...then she keep laughing at me..please la i almost get killed lar my dear sis!then she keep say sure u angry she dun allow u hang out lar..rite?then u dun eat lar rite ?then u run to the room and slam the door lar rite?XP..hahaha she says out wat i did..hahah damn freking funny♥ then i ask her why dun she call back ause she said tat she miss us...hahaah my sister i the kinda of person who wont say i miss u.. and so on...but she it last nite...she call back to my mom and really chat wit my mom...then my mom ask her to return the bag to her cuase it hers.== then i msn jamie and tell her. Dun worrie.mummy had just rang ah yee to buy some bag back for u..hahahahah then i say act like u dun know it..hahahaha then my sis told me tat she cried just now cuase she really miss mummy...hahahaha maybe its been awhile she had not seen my mum...so she was like i miss mummy so much... Oh Please JAMIE...

Promise me.come back on June..If not i'll kill u!!! sister needs u ...♥

XOXO..this time is for jamie..dun be jealous jeffrey...♥

16/4/10

First, i would like to call *someone* to fuck off.Really fuck the hell up..Being a copy cat really tat nice ?i really cant understand.whatever ppl has,u will also wan it to.Please. Din't u have ur own style? Ppl wan Aino u also wan..wat the hell lar u..U really make me hate u even deeper...Please..Stop adding me at Facebook. I ignore u till i vy sienz adi... Really go have ur own stlye lar...wat ppl wan u also wan go and die better lar u! Fuck!

P.S. Is talking about some fat ass who think tat she's damn famous,pretty or whatever.So people please dun think tat i'm talking about u.

This morning almost get killed.Stupid man.. my mom was on the way sending me to school. On the way to school.i din even make a sound,cause i really damn mad at wat they did yesterday...really speechless...then when she reach to school.she stop by in front of my school and wait there and she din even call me to get down or wat..so i guess she was mad at me too.so i get down from the car..when one of my feet was on the ground.she move the damn car and i almost get killed..i really cant stand her. then so i yell at her directly in front of everyone.I said: u wan to kill me isit.kill lar..now i walk infront the car,hit me wit the fucking car lar,Diu! then she looked at me. I was like,please really get a life lar. I know the wold "get a life" is rude, But i'm sorry Jeffrey i really cant stand wat she's doing .so i just yell at her.get a life and i walk in to the school directly. everyone is looking at me.Ish!

Then i went in to school to have my dinner or bread first. i was too mad so i just yell all the bad words out just to cool myself down...then i have my bread first angrily! Ish! she really destroy me beautiful morning. then i went yumiko's class to tell her tat i cant go out wit them..i really felt vy sorry to them...i broke my promise...I'm sorry Yumiko Bibi... really vy sorry..tat moment i really feel like cry...i really made them disappointed...then yumiko teman me back to my class. and i tell her everyting about yesterday...i knew tat they are disappionted...i'm really sorry.then i went in to my class ..haha then later i found tat everyone is asking where is Tan Shu Yan where is Tan Shu Yan..hhahah really sweet...melt my heart...hahaha then the first period no teacher..then we chat chat chat all rubbish...hahah then i make a promise wit my monitor, if she could fold 520 heart for her boyf in two months time i'll belanjar her eat westen food..lol...hahahhaa..damn cute she really pui me gila..hahahah Then i see she keep fold fold fold .two days only fold about 21 or 26 hearts only..pite her lar...then she say she dun think tat she could finish it in two months time cause is going to have our mid year exam...haha then i played her..u study de mie ?then she look at me...damn cute.hahah then i help her out ...

Then we have our BM lesson..felt boring really vy boring..cant the teacher shut up for a day?? Ish..every day *sayang sayang* her sayang means bit..Please lar really vy stupid one lar she..ish!!!! then i said cant she just shut up just a day..please really vy anoyying...todays lesson..was...mari betulkan jawapan...muka surat bla bla bla..then i turn to the page...

Cindy: teacher mark adi lor...
Moganavali: i know but u all stupid girls din mark..
Cidny: we stupid ?then u more stupid lor..u're our teacher ma
Moganavali:....
Ok mari kita sambung...
then talk talk talk..
then later all annoying noise coming out from her mouth.
then me,ee huey.nicole.tong. All *shhhh her at the same moment.she get wat we're talking about then she just shut up..

At last. break time...
yeah...walking though yumiko's class.=) find her to apologize ....hahah then chat chat chat call she to hang next Sunday...really wish i could go finger cross people!!!hahahaha.then went back to class study study...

Now this was the most amazing & funny part=)
Hahaha,after school...we decided to go to the library. study there...Ish! dun feel like going home so stay at school study=) hahaha then i ate many thing cause i'm going to eat at night...so i stuff many food into my stomach..then we went to the library..haha on the way to library...the Yumiko ask me ..are we going to the store?? hahaha i knew her heart flew to the store and stick there...hahaha then i say ok lar we go at 2pm...so we study study...hahaha i dun think tat we're studying...cause tat moment we just laughing non stop....gossip..hahah we're bitch tat moment.then yumiko was sitting beside me...she's copping geo projek...hahah then i go move her hand.hahah then we chat chat then we laugh laugh...hahahah funny sei..then i ask then when are we going the sore..haha OMG! my heart flew to the store too ..hahah then we say scare no time come back then we quick quick get out from the library...on the way to our bags.we were thinkg how we got to the store... then the yumiko say i black lor i black lor...hahaha then i say sit taxi lur..but u pay i just brought 2 bugs...hahah then bibi sasy i only got 50 sen so yumiko's the richest here=)so she paid..hahaha then we walk out the school..then the yumiko keep saying vy hot vy hot ...i dun wan to walk then i say take taxi lar..hahaha then we walk back to school..erm not walikng is running hahaha then we saw ataxi outside out school .then yumiko forget to bring money hahaha really cute♥ then she run to her bag and take..then when she run out we looked out the gate..the taxi gone adi...then we laugh so loud haha everone is looking at us..haha then i and bibi say lets call taxi..hahah but too high adi we forget the num hahha..so we keep guessing wats the num...hahah wat 321355,2534245,21367,311431,hahahha really damn sor ....really forget adi.then ask a girl sitting there looking at us...hahaha laughing at us...i ask her.zhiyi taxi wan num jor ?then she say 2534188..hahaah then we nah!!!! hahahahah then i and bibi run the phone *dun know wat we call adi..as long there's is a phone..hahah then we run there there damn far and hot..hahah then the yumiko yell again..there's is a taxi outside..hhah then we laugh like hell..hahahahah♥ we quickly run out..then when we run out tat time many ppl following us...then we tot the taxi ppl wan then we walk to the taxi no one..lets rush in...hhahah then faster get into the car then i say: uncle the store please..then reach the store she paid then money...haha damn funny when we walk in we keep say wa so cool so cool..outside so hot so hot...hahha then i go buy *star paper* i wan to give it to someone...hahhaa but yumiko say its sure is for Jeffrey..ahahahah then i say no..jeffrey got another present more nicer one..♥ then she jealous..keep say everyday jeffrey jeffrey..hahahahaa yea i love him so wat?lolz..i love u two...hahaha then we see many thing say wan but wan buy but no money jor..hahahahha ..yumiko saw an egg...vy cute...when it grow bigger the brunch will had words on it..lol fucking cute.hahaha the i say u buy lar we try at home..haha then she say i wan sit taxi back...hahahaha then din buy jor scare no money..hahahhaha so we walk walk walk bibi say tat she thirsty hahahha...so we buy drinks wit bibi..hahah buy jor coke..damn expansive lur...sorhai..Rm2 of one small cup wor..three person also not enough to drink hahah then we take turns..hahah bibi once.yumiko once then the last is me//but i felt i just drank four times haha the rest the finish it..lol...hahahahahaah then we walk back to school cause no phone cant call 2534188 come fatch us so we walk back..bibi yumiko keep say hot black hahaha damn cute lar them...then we going to reach school the yumiko run back to the door then and i was laughing...hahah den we quickly run to canteen buy drinks ..when we sit down we felt tat vy hot..so went bangsa sit hahahaha...there cool cool geh..vy song then we sit there chat hahaha chat chat chat the yumiko keep looking atthe mirror..
Cindy:Leng bao lur..
Bibi:havent picha
Cindy:tat means she' not pretty enough hahahahaha(kidding)
Bibi: so bad lar u..
hahaah dun take it serious yumiko i'm just joking around..=)
Then i felt hot..then we walk walk till kolam there and i sit on the floor cause vy cool there hahah we chat many things about yumiko's bro..hahaha she dislike her girlf.haha but her bro also damn cham one...haiz.human is like tat their gredy.then chat chat her walk back to canteen sit there..haha chatting chatting i and bibi saw three bird flying together..the jump also together ahha i felt it cute...hahaah then we take as it was us..yumiko..bibi..and cindy...friends forever/then suddenly one of the brid flew away.so only felt two bird...so one bid fly and the other bird follow together hahah then i say the one who follow is a male.hahah then bi and miko say u dun let girl chase boy ah..hahha then we laugh laugh laugh..Then is time to go home le...having much fun wit u guys..really vy fun...all the laughter and everything u guys gave me..i will never ever forget...is always deep in my heart,as usually...i love u two just excatly how i love jeffrey♥

xoxo.jeff.bi.miko♥
love u till the end...

writen by: Cindy♥

Needs u..

I need u baby :)
Jeffrey.Bibi.Yumiko..
dun ever try to leave me..u three are vy important to me..

Hmmm...

Suddenly felt tat some ppl really think tat they are vy big or famous.They really tot tat their Boyf are vy damn famous.So they think tat they're pretty,glamorous or whatever.Please!Stop being a bitch!!You're a bitch!dont ever think tat he is famous so you could talk like big sister or wat!Seriously,you're not famous at all.!please stop acting like a bitch!Really dun ever think tat you're big.Someday,someone will really give u a big slap! if they really can't stand u anymore.

P.S. I din't mention who was it.So just dun think tat it was u..Tea.maybe someday she would be seeing this but,I guess she will not notice tat actually i'm talking about her..

Back to my life
Felt lazy today.dont even feel like doing anything too.Actually,its kinda moody.I found tat Jeffrey is not going out wit me next monday.I had not seen him like a month.but feels like a year..I miss u vy much.I need you... but u told me tat ur're not going,really felt dissapionted.I really wish tat you're here.I wan you to stand rite infron of me now.but i know it will not happened.Just forget bout it..
I miss u jeffrey...


Dear bibi wong=)
hope u see this...
darling ah..why u yao emo gem???wat ntg to chat wit us?/u wan die ke??cannot like tat say lar..we are best friend.u wont lose ur..really..i wont leave u behinde...we love u...Monday is the day we going to chat! sing!dance! like hell..so dun unhappy...after monday u will be even happy..trust me...i need u=)



XOXO.jeffrey.bibi.yumiko

FELT IN LOVE.

Suddently felt in love with this song...*What you waiting for-mizz nina*
damn nice..
really vy nice...
Enjoying...
today felt like ignoring everyone damn sien in school.
Study~Study~
suddently remind me tat i havent finish Jeffrey's suprise...
OMG!!
i'm gonna faint hahhaa...
need to think wat i'm gonna write...
lol...
i love u baby...really love u deeply..please..
yumiko and bibi wong..dun be jealous..
i love u two more...

xoxo.

14/4/10

Today felt happy cause i tot tat i could hang wit yumiko them on monday..
but when i get home ..
i got a bad news..
my mom would not allow me to go...
ish...
i wonder...
i still had my dad...
yea ask him..or maybe beg him...uh uh...
wish me damn myne luck people!!
finger cross please....
i reall wan to go jusco wit them....!!!

Life directions...

Today was having Chinses lesson...
I felt annoying cause I'm not interested in chinses at all.Please!
But I found tat I'm into the chapter...
The chapter is about *Life Directions*
Life will never ever turn back for u or anyone.
If u had a changes to get back to standed one..will u??
& my answer is no...
i prefer the life now.=)

Life will alwayls have a directions.

when Someday u felt tat ur lost or maybe u went to the wrong way ...
dun worrie...
since u had already walked,just keep walking...
till u see another conjunction stop there and think again..

Dun ever try to walk back
once u walked back the road it will not be the road tat u walk the firit..
Just like us...
once u turn back.its alreadly not the first *u ...

Life is like this...
once u wan to make up ur mind...
think properly before u do anything.
once u did...
i will never ever turn back again...

xoxo...

everything is fine=)

BIBI YUMIKO..
sorry abour everything..
i dun mean to be mad at you two..
really .
tis few days i yao vy no mood..so i din reply ur blog msg..
really sorry...
i'm not mad at you two at all..
pls dun think to much..
i love u guys much...
really vy much...

the end

I guess this is the end of the story.
Saying good bye...
Bye to everything...

10/4/10

Thing morning..
Was smsing wit Ziheng.
suddently a msg was send to my phone...
i tot it was u...
but i really dissappiont me...
fine i knew u wont be u...

forget bout it.
i wont reply anymore.

last night.

He seems like ignore me...
Find..
I cant do anything.
Really.
dun know wat to do anyone...

Hide in the bed .crying again...
she seems tired about everything.
Suddently she have lost her frieds and now her lover...
if she could choose...
She would give up everything.

你还会像以前酱爱我吗？
你还会像以前酱疼我吗?
你还会像以前酱想我吗？？
你还爱我吗？
Suddently felt like asking u.
i felt like knowing the answer.

9/4/10

I've lost them..
why must u hurt me like tat???
u make me cry again..Jeffrey.
lost them and now u...
i really vy dissappinoted.

8/4/10

DONT know why..feel like blogging today.
but i cant online so i type it the next day..
Hmmm...today's mood was bad...everything is just vy bad.
Suddenly felt that I'm lonely...
I wish i could just end this up...
really frustrated...Cant sleep.
thinking.
what could i do.Crying.just to fix things back...
I'm terribly lost.
where should i go now?
i've last my directions..
Try to feel happiness but i realise i cant smile like i use to do,anymore
I cant trust anyone anymore...included you
Really..
Dont make me hate u please.
I really dun want to...
tired about it.


Look through the window like i always do..
dreaming...
better then thinking stuff...
make me even feel like crying...
went to school without mood.
did everything wrong...

*PROMISE
tis world pls dun come out from ur mouth easly...
I'm like a kid..
once u promise dun try to break it.
u break it i'll hate u deeply...
dun make me hate u cause i dun wan to...

I will not find another directions anymore..
cause i felt that if there is a new directions and when i walk through it..
i felt even worst...
well..
i guess i will just stay here and keep to be lost.
i will not find a new directions...
friendship really is nothing.
end it up please...



P.S : Someday.u'll see this.Jeffrey.Please dun say tat i'm emo..Cause tis is wat i am.

最后。。

BIBI WONG my dear darling.

Aiyor..
sei poh u...
dun every time think tat u nothing to say lar..
next time i will talk to u more..lolz..
mou gem think
i angry geh...we are best friend rite???
sorry tat we din talk to u much...
i promise u tat i wont dump u behind...
we walk we walk together..
we talk we talk together..
we smile we mush shine together...
kay??
we are best friend rite???
u know that we love u...
pls..
dun ever try to think tat u are not important..
to me...
u are vy important..
i love u just like how i love jeffrey..
u are as important as jeffrey..
baby...
please be happy..


ILY&INY

XOXO
BIBI WONG

cry:(

Crying last nite..
scare to loose jeffrey...
scare tat mummy will do something to us...
i really dun wan to loose jeffrey..
i love him...
i wan him.
i need him...
i cant live without him...
really cant!

Crying non stop..
missing him...
wish he's rite beside me:(
i could hug him tight tight!
i would never let go.

xoxo jeffrey ong

no modd le:(

Die lor...mommy know i pak tou jor..

Shit..

Scare..

Scare wat?

scare loose jeffrey..

Dying..

Cant sleep...

keep thinking..

really stupid..brainless...

Cant study even...

i really dun understand why must she do such things to me..

make my mood bad...

cant even relax...

Damn fucking annoying.





Do u think tat i should allow jeffrey to view my profile???



I miss him..

as usual..

miss him till i die..

love him so much!

i need him now...

hahaha..i love my friends.

YUMIKO! BIBI WONG!
i love damn much!
u know..whenever i was wit u guys..
i really smile like i always do...
just llike how i smile to jeffrey=)
you two are are secound thing tat i cant loose in my life!
first jeffrey=)
secound both of u!!


i love u guys damn much much!!!

xoxo