sorry . i'm useless.

I've no guts o tell u how much i miss and love u

I wish i show u before the word came out form u mouth. I miss u.

Shawty's love is like a pyramid (ooh)
We stand together till the very end (eh ooh)
There'll never be another love for sure (ooh)
Iyaz and Charice let we go

Stones, heavy like the love you've shown (shown)
Solid as the ground we've known (known)
And I just wanna carry on
We took it from the bottom up (no no no)
And even in a desert storm (yeah)
Sturdy as a rock we hold (oh)
Wishing every moment froze
Now I just wanna let you know
Earthquakes can't shake us
Cyclones can't break us
Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top (at the top baby), like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep on going
Forever we will stay, like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh (oooh)

Cold (cold), never ever when you're close (close)
We will never let it fold (fold)
A story that was never told
Something like a mystery (yoh! )
And every step we took we've grown
Look how fast the time has flown
A journey to a place unknown
We're going down in history
Earthquakes can't shake us (oh)
Cyclones can't break us (oh)
Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (hey! )
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top, (at the top baby) like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing (wind is blowing)
We'll never fall just keep it going (keep it going)
Forever we will stay, like a pyramid (eh oh)

Like a pyramid girl let me show you
That I love you so much
That we gonna get through (oh oh)
Even when there's storms
I will never go, Ima be the one to keep you safe (hey)
Before was our love back it up more than enough
Holding on to one another be the cover when it's rough (oh oh)
Mother nature (hey) or disaster won't stop at happy ever after

Pyramid, keep it going (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)
Oh oh ooooh (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (solid rock)
It feels just like it's heaven's touch (oooh)
Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep on going (keep it going)
Forever we will stay (Charice), like a pyramid (what what)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid (pyramid)
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep it going
Forever we will stay (ooh), like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsty.com/lyrics/c/charice/#share

This might be long

I dont know how to start this, i dont feel like telling anyone how am i now. Just here. telling u evrything then act like nothing happened before. but i know i cant act like nothig happened before. I'll try my best. I know now our love wont last long. you just dont know how i feel after u told me out there there is many guys for u to chooes. it hurts alot, my treas keep rowling down, i really cant acept what u've just say. i know now we really cant last long. the feeling tell me that i'm begging for not to break up.I dont know what am i think , vy messy. i cant stop my treas.I know the road now for me is vy hard, or maybe i cant walk through, i'll fly there and act like nothing happend before. as if i dont like it, i'll act like i can't see it. i know i might hear lots of break up words now. just to be honest to you, i saw that post, I'm really happy, i just dont wan to quarrel with u, only abit of console from u . but now i know i'm not getting all these. I really wish time stops before u say break up and i have to stop being jealous. and i'm gonna untag everyone of u. all of u dont belong here. say bye bye to everything.

10/7/10

We're still so cold last night.I hate this feeling. all i need is just abit of console from u. i dont need much, just simple love is enough. No point telling me how much u love me,yet i dont feel any Love from u. I almost cry at school infront suet lee and ee huey.Asking them what should i do. Now what should i do?

9/7/10 what a 'great' day!

Woke up at 6.00 am took a bath. While blowing my hair. I saw something on facebook,and tat starts my 'day'!Again. I hate u.Again and again.Forgive.angry forgive angry.Really make me feel tired and useless talking to u. Really make wanna fuck u 99.All you know is do what ever your heart say and you're like ignoring me or something. What am I to u? HUH?!I'm like a dump ass to you!Do what ever u wan ? toleransi? No more toleransi right now! I can't toleransi already! I can't sand all this mother fucking crap. All u know is just care about yourself and i'm just nothing to you. Hey! Do you know tat u hurt me alot and its painfull! You're like "who cares, i just want it my own way. Who's blocking me,and you're down!"Since you dont care how i feel, then why must I care how u feel ?! I cant do it my won way too. I dont care how much this hurts you. Dont blam anyone, blame urself.you start is and now u gotta pay it. this realationship might be a game to you. but to me it mean alot to me. I know u will read this or maybe reading it right now. Obviously u're mad. but i'm not gonna say sorry to u. casue i'm the one who say sorry all the time. I din even did anything wrong.You just cant tell how angry i am right now. You just dont know how i feel. Dissapiontment, heart broken, been cheated , where's trust? What couple should have? forget about it. Simple promise we can't even do. Ehem. not 'we' is ME.For sure. and obviously, I cant do all promises tat I've promise. What dont quarrel again? I can't so it seriously . This might be vy rude. and i don't care anymore. there's only two way. Tough or Smooth Let's do it tough.

No reason.

Dont know why i came here for, so just ramdom type things tat happened today. When Parade wit Yumiko and Suet lee. Went K-box with them, shout and yelling in the room. everyone walk by and look in to the room. there was like three crazy girls yelling like dump ass. I saw two boys. both of them are me ex. One of them hit my head wit his hand. another we just act like we dont know each other. Cause of his girlf. UH. dont wanna talk about her. we left K-box at 3 we when shopping and we talk the laugh like the mall is ours again. Laughing loudly and everyone is looking at us. then we when back to school. today was a blast, but i'm still not enough. I'm like missing something. Actually i dont know what am i blogging.

29 june

I'm still finding my answer today.I'm still moody today. but once i think of the image tat we're gonna when through, i smile stright away. I hanged wit Bibi wong and Yumiko Chin today. I'm so exiceted when i knew tat we're gonna have many fun after school.But Someone just FFk me. its ok, after lunch. we walked around, and we laugh loudly as if the mall was ours. LOL.After tat we feel bored, nothing to buy then we when starbucks. muahahahaha. bought some drinks.then it starts to rain. and the fun part is coming.when we're on the taxi, we took many picture, but all failed, cause vy ugly. LOL. then when we reached to school, its raining cat and dogs. and we rush down from the car.laughing non stop.then we run from the front door to the canteen and we're all wet. OMG everyone is look at us. LOL. they was like, OMG what happened to this three crazy girl? hmm. mental ke? but to us it means alot to us. On the way while we're running, our laughter was the most happiest part in the whole story. i love it freaking much.I miss these days wit u guys. hahahahah. Its beed so long i have not seen myself laughing like tat. non stop. Today was fun. And now i'm going 'big tree leg' with them this friday. i cant wait to eat wit them and shared my everything to them.

U're so in deep shit!

Why do u lie ? I dont understand.I'm try all my best to find something to keep away the lies, but i really cant find a single reason,why u lie to me. why dont u just tell me the truth? I heard so many things today, and i cried after i heard everything. Its all crap! U just broke my heart into peacses. I hate u. I seriously cant accept what u did. i just got cheated by u, I'm like a 5 year old girl to u. A lie after a lie, what lies do u wan to tell me now ? Just tell, i'm really very tired talking to u. I really dont understand.

27 June

Woke up around 7.51.. getting ready for the movies, but i'm not tat excited at all.. Its just a normal date wit my sister,casue she's leavin' tomorrow. then i when Jusco around 10 something, followed my dad to the market and bought milk. After my dad left, we meet my sister's friend at the cinema.then i when in with the 3D glasess. IDK why, when i was watching,i'm not really paying attention about it. my mind is full of rubbish. I really wan to kill myself, i really can't help myself. i really hate u alot. I'm crying through the whole week. i'm tired. i dont wan to cry.i really dont wan to care what u wan to do. i dont even whan to know what's going on wit u.three days. mean alot to me. I dont even get a single msg from u. yea!ur phone is out of crited, but i just cant stop angryin u. Its really my problem.The problem starts from me.I'm the one who casue so many trouble.I'm so troublesom. I'm wasting ur time my time. wasting everybody's time. When i in the cinema, i was thinkin' should i wait for the answer? or not ? and now i think, i dont need the answer anymore. i'm so naive, who ever dreamed for a prince charming? I'm so so so childish. The last thing, i dont hope to get a single msg or a word from u. Just...I dont wanna talk about it anymore.

Regret ? or u still love me like usual?

Actually,my mood was very bad these days. I just dont know whats is in my head. Actually, i love u so so much.but i just dont know how to explain it to u. U just dont know how much i hate it when we quarrel, and now i found i dont even have feelings after we quarrel. I really dont wan this feeling, i wan to cry, i wan to feel how much i love u. And now i just wan to know did u regret after be with me? I really wan to know the answer. maybe send me a msg ?I'm waiting.

Strawberry

Do i love strawberry? Yes i think do. I dun know why, this few days i'm so desprated to eat strawberrys..I know I'm wried,Ignore* I'm gonna clean my room now. or maybe reorganise it. IDK. My make up, maybe i bought too much.i had no more spaces to put it. so,i gonna get a new table,name'make up table 2' hahahah sounds wired. I need to find a cloth, i need to repack my cupboard,throw all the cloths tat i dun wear.some spaces to put my bags or maybe shoes.. I think i must get going already. So,i'll see u later <3 XOXO

worst day ever!

I'm back today.. just to spirited out all my feeling here. I'm tired to tell u how i feel. how unhappy i am. how i hate it! no point telling u and u are not willing to cheer me up, all u know is call me to cheer up. Do u know how much i hate u when u call me to cheer up? idk how to say this but, I really hate u now. I hate u but i still love u at the same time. Sometimes I really hate myself for loving u so deep, becasue onces we quarrel, I surely cry like hell. I really dun like crying.expecially crying because of u! Idk what can i do now. i really dont know.

this is where i belong

this is where i belong. i like to stay here but not my real world. Here had no lies. just me everything but me.i like to stay alone right now.. But now .i dun even wan to write all my sadness here. I've lost everything i wanted. Good bye to everything .

treas :(

Its 9.26am rigth now..i'm crying. i read these msg again.i cant control my tears.it keep on rowing down..

我，那又怎样？

我就是没脑。
我幼稚。
我懒。
我爱发脾气。
我爱被骗。
我爱被利用。
我爱发神经。
哪又怎样？

你说我不尊重你的朋友。那你又尊重过我的吗？
你说你有为我想过，
那为什么你不知道我生气什么？
我在吃醋你知道么？
我有多不喜欢你知道吗？
我有多讨厌你知道吗？
我有多痛你知道吗？
我哭你知道吗？

每一次在我最需要你的时候？
你在哪里？
我需要肩膀的时候你又在哪里？
为什么每次错的都是我？
难道你一点错也没有吗？

我很讨厌你！

我放弃了/3

我，
累了。
对着你。。
我不知道要做什么。
我不敢看着你了。
我怕我一看见你我的眼泪就不断的掉。


从现在起，
我不会再要你一秒的时间。
你说得对。你不会每次都陪我。
你一个星期不找我也没关系了。。。
你三个月不找我也没关系。
我不会烦你，。


我是天真，
我是不爱读书，
我不像你，
有一个酱聪明的头脑，
我配不起你，
我做什么都是错的。
你也不属要这样跟我说话。


我就设那样。一句不喜欢就行了。
我不管你怎样想。我只会跟着我的心走。


我不会再跟你投诉我不喜欢谁，我喜欢谁。
到了现在我才知道你想听。
我不会再跟你说这些对你来讲很没脑的东西了。
我不会在控制你了。
恭喜你，你自由了。

Confuse...

I had Love that confuse ppl...

Girls today.

They kinda get jealous easily these days..OMFG! I dun get it..the boys are not their boyf,not their lover. and the main thing was, I'm not their closest friend.why must they get jealous? jealous of ppl are prettier then them ? or they just jealous wit no reason? what a wired human...Let me tell u these bitch! if u wan to gossip about me ! just cum infront of me and gossip infront of me.stop being a rat that did stupid things behind ppl. U're just too childish!! way too childish girls. because of u ,these type of girls !u really disgrace malaysian girls! because of u the kind of attitude make ppl said tat malaysian girls are bitches...U just act childish! girls.U need to grow up. be mature.stop acting like three year old kids dude! u're fifteen peeps.grow up please. Stop doing stupid thing to let ppl take notice at u! please if u wanna be famous get lose and go some where far away from me..go a head and become ur whatever famouse moron..i dun even fucking care peeps...Just make me feel like hating u! bitch! if u think u are pretty then the others? so just good luck for tat then. if ppl are ugly then u.yea so good for u u had win.I dun understand why do girls like to compare wit the other ? if u really think tat u're the most preetier so congrat then.u win...do u wan u prize? please lar..u are just way to fucking childish girl!May god bless u!

regret.

i regret telling u everyting about me.i regret i've know u before.I regret for choosing to trust u.I regret everthing wit u...u make me feel fustrated..i dun even know who are u ...lets act like we din even know before. :) nice meeting u.

People these days :(

I found everyone was so sarcastic.Really cant get it...why must they say different things to me or to other ppl? huh? really dun understand. if u're not then dun tell me tat u are! please i'm not a 3 year old kid. I'm 15 now.I know how to see which is fake and which is real...if u think tat i'm easy to be cheacted sorry u find the wrong person.u're so wrong.go and find someone stupid and bluff whatever u wan to them. i'm not them , i cant take a single lies from u peeps. i hate ppl who said something different to me and to other. U make me feel like I've been cheated. u makje me hate u .u make me feel like ignoring u.u make me feel irratating. i hate u now.i hate u from the moment i had alread know i've beed cheated. i hate beeing cheated. So just stay away from me Please. i'm trying to llive without u now.just go away! *ignore*

found:(

I found tat evertime when i was up here.all i had postedwas just my moody post.nohing special.ts just some annoying post.Fuck its fucking blog.I hate you!

When i was sad.:(

Evertime.whenever i felt unhappy.the vy fist thing that pops into my head was."i need to blog now" But i realized tat i cant trust anyone,i dun even feel like letting anyone to read my blog or what.i should had deleted it.I'm just way too emotion.Forgive me Please!

*treas

Jeffrey

I hate u!

I hate u!

I hate u!

I hate u!

I hate u!

I hate u!
I hate u!

I hate u!

I hate u!

I hate u!

jeffrey ong!I know is hurting u.but I';m hurt either.I'mn the one who hurt the most here.You just don't know howi feel right now.I hate u

*Treas

5. May.

Hurt.Dissappointed.speechless.pain.suffer.cry.tired.broken.Promise.unforgetable. wishes.i dun believe it anymore.its just crap! Its just too much for me..how can i handel all this in once? I felt annoying.irritating..

yumiko

Where's everyone? I felt lonely :(

Everytime when ever i was upset.

U.will sure be by my side.supporting me

everytime,i chat wit u or sms..

i sure will laugh like hell..casue u are just to childish!

i fucking love u girl.

I was unhappy and after i sms u .

i found myself laughing non stop...

hahaha sei childish po...

I love sei u liao....

forever by my side a u..

dun run away!

I LOVE U

Please.

Please tell me tat u love me still..

i just dun wan to know the truth..

Just tell me.

U love me!

Me and him..

I felt like eating many cups of ice-cream right now..what can i do...Dear Lord help me please..i'm tired of crying..i just cant stop crying... why must he say such word to hurt me ? dun he think it hurts me deeply? i'm the one who felt pain not him..he can even feell how i feell right now.Or to him is just a word nothing special. I felt bad too..i said something hurtful to him...but i juct can help it..once i get angry everything will just comeout from my mouth .I wanted to contorl but i cant. i felt like i dun suit u anymore :( I felt like i dun even know who are u...i try to be nice but everytime once we chat we sure quarrel.. what can i do to pull us back and not to quarrel? I really dun know... I'm scare to loose u i dun even wan to loose u ... help me please... *treas..
everytime when i'm not happy i will just blast the music and dance. but now i cant even dance.every secound ever minute just thinking about u. What can i doooo??? i just cant stop think about u...i just cant control me treas..hours and hours. i dun feel like giving u to read my blog anymore.really. i hate this stupid blog. I hate u!!!

Addicted

OMG! i hate myself! now i'm addicted in make up! keep buy buy buy.. and now my eyeliner was all used up ...had to buy again...Jusco see u tomorrow again.LOL..every sunday go sure buy some make up back de ..ISH I HATE MYSELF!

Stupid girls!

Hmm.. Its been a long time tat i han not update my blog...fucking miss u bloggie...haha..I'm here today, is not to blow out all my unhappiness.. i just telling how i feel and hw was life.=) LOL...Life was just fine. nothing special happened.. Just felt tat sometime some ppl likes too stop me from loving someone.. Please !don't u think tat its really vy childish? and like talking about u and ur boyf? y dun u talk about yourself? huh? dun do such stupid thing Please! Its really vy irritating..
Fuck off Please!!!

I love U

Finally,i got myself awake.i use to ba a girl who's vy stupid.brainless.useless.everyting.I always worrier about wat i'm going to do after this 8 month.8 month passes vy fast!Now i turn back and think.It's really vy funny.Found myself stupid crying for nothing.Well.There/s just a ways to make me feel better,although it's a stupid idea!.but i prefer to do it tis way.You're the first boy tat i love u the most and couldn't live without.this four month was really great.being wit u was the right think i had ever did in my life.loving u was the same too.I had never seen myself loving someone tat deep.Really tat's unbelievable.And i din even found a person who excatly like meI love you was just like breathing.How can i stop it? I realy believe tat our love can last forever.really can.After tis 8 month,u should be at somewhere for away from meAnd i really believe tat ur heart will remain by my seid,althought you're far away from me.I know it's hard for me to be strong all by myself.but i'll try my best to do it just for u.Sometime its really vy hard for me to wait for someone tat long.But i promise i'll wait for u.now tis 8 month.is the right time to be alwas by ur side.i'll never ever leave u baby..I love u an i need u.i really hope tat u know tat, You know you're my drug and i'm so addicted.I love u forever and always.

Need to learn to be strong cindy♥

时间，一天一天的过。也该长大的。不可以什么都依靠这他。就算他不在你身边。你也可以好好的过。现在慢慢的习惯，以后就不会酱辛苦了。不可以每天动不动就掉眼泪。。就算多不开心，都要笑着面对。相信你一定可以的。加油♥

Missing Jeffrey once again!

This afternoon,while i was waiting till its 7pm.so i could chat wit my baby! It was hard to pass. I miss him and i need him. After a MSG and a MSG.. I'm still waiting. Dun know why.today's feeling was so wired.I suddenly felt tat i love Jeffrey even deeper.i was thinking about him the whole day like every single minute. Its kinda wired.I usually dun miss him tat much. Not tat i dun miss him. Is tat i miss him like randomly not like every second. cant get wat I'm thinking. I dun even understand wat i wan now.I just know tat i need him.I wan him now..treas rowing down again. I miss him.thinking stupid question again. sometime i really hate myself for doing all tis i just cant get it. I'm gonna get crazy one day.trust me

And now its gonna be 8pm.he's not home yet. No mood to do homework.getting lazy and lazier.Slap me pls! Pmr is coming and what am i doing? still have many time to blog...*slap*


I miss u Jeffrey.like a always do.
U miss me ?
XOXO

Baby

You're the laughter in my life.

No longer

We need to think about our future.yup!we have to! this few days I felt tat there is not much time for me to see jeffrey.few monts later,he's gonna be 18 and he had to go somewhere far away from me...No one teach me how to do math. No pui me chat..No one will cheer my up when i was down...I cant even think or see after tis year..How can i live witout jeffrey ? Suddently pop up in my mind tis morning.i was really wondering, what will happened to my.. Asking kinda of stupid question...

My Love

In my live.i tot tat i will just love jeffrey deep and vy much, and there is no one can take his place !But i found not only i cant live without jeffrey♥I found two person in my live tat i cant live without too...ist BIBI & YUMIKO..i love them just like how i love jeffrey♥ I found tat in my life tat i love them the most was jeffrey bibi yumiko. and it will not change♥

Soulmate♥

♥Damn best Friend

No matter wat happeneds to us.Our friendship will still there♥

i Love You :)

Funs♥

I knew we are going to have so much fun this friday♥..But i really hope tat my mom din check up on me...i'll will be no mood on tat day or maybe not going even..hahaha...Whatever..Well..meeting Jeffrey tis friday...finally i got the chance to see him..i miss him like every single day! I promise i'll be there in time on friday♥ I'm not gonna ffk u bi and miko...take many picture♥ hahah miko.u're not going to get black..haha we are taking taxi...so tis time! who is going to pay? hahha LOL!!!

I love u

xoxo

jealous♥

I know i might get jealous if i keep reading his blog...but i still encourge to read it...i know i'm a stupid hard bone! Know i'm gonna get jealous but i still wan to see it..Sometimes really hate myself for doing all tis...Everytime i get jealous i'll sure quarrel wit him..no matter how many times i promise not to quarrel at last i cant do it...just because of JEALOUS!! Saw it today...the vy first Blog...i saw two ring...Yeah jealous again cindy..Fucked up please! Stop reading his blog..u're gonna die by lack of tears!Please just to keep urself happy...

Studying♥

I love Him

He's everything to me.

So

I Love Him ♥

18/4/10

I felt like antagnising someone

hope its not u♥

I Love You

Jeffrey♥

i miss u♥

I Miss You Jeffrey Ong♥

wish u were here...

Last Night♥

Last night,was a wonderful night.♥ was chatting wit my sister by msn...she was asking wat song am i finding? so i told her .*what you waiting for-mizz nina*i cant find it..then chat chat chat...then i sak ask her could she give me her blog add..i wan to see it..

Jamie:no
Cindy:Why?
Jamie:cause its private ==
Cindy: u got private?i knew everything about u.
Jamie: no u dun know.
Cindy yes i know. just give it!
Jamie: ok wait.

hahaha then she type type type...then call me give her my add email..all all...
then i see her blog...omg! She when lagoon wit out me ...plying having so much fun wit her friends...Yeah..i could feel tat she had change alot...really alot...Its not the old jamie...now she dun even care wat ppl says about her or wat.she just be her ownself... damn tough bitch!!

Then i was telling her about wat my mom did in the morning...then she keep laughing at me..please la i almost get killed lar my dear sis!then she keep say sure u angry she dun allow u hang out lar..rite?then u dun eat lar rite ?then u run to the room and slam the door lar rite?XP..hahaha she says out wat i did..hahah damn freking funny♥ then i ask her why dun she call back ause she said tat she miss us...hahaah my sister i the kinda of person who wont say i miss u.. and so on...but she it last nite...she call back to my mom and really chat wit my mom...then my mom ask her to return the bag to her cuase it hers.== then i msn jamie and tell her. Dun worrie.mummy had just rang ah yee to buy some bag back for u..hahahahah then i say act like u dun know it..hahahaha then my sis told me tat she cried just now cuase she really miss mummy...hahahaha maybe its been awhile she had not seen my mum...so she was like i miss mummy so much... Oh Please JAMIE...

Promise me.come back on June..If not i'll kill u!!! sister needs u ...♥

XOXO..this time is for jamie..dun be jealous jeffrey...♥

16/4/10

First, i would like to call *someone* to fuck off.Really fuck the hell up..Being a copy cat really tat nice ?i really cant understand.whatever ppl has,u will also wan it to.Please. Din't u have ur own style? Ppl wan Aino u also wan..wat the hell lar u..U really make me hate u even deeper...Please..Stop adding me at Facebook. I ignore u till i vy sienz adi... Really go have ur own stlye lar...wat ppl wan u also wan go and die better lar u! Fuck!

P.S. Is talking about some fat ass who think tat she's damn famous,pretty or whatever.So people please dun think tat i'm talking about u.

This morning almost get killed.Stupid man.. my mom was on the way sending me to school. On the way to school.i din even make a sound,cause i really damn mad at wat they did yesterday...really speechless...then when she reach to school.she stop by in front of my school and wait there and she din even call me to get down or wat..so i guess she was mad at me too.so i get down from the car..when one of my feet was on the ground.she move the damn car and i almost get killed..i really cant stand her. then so i yell at her directly in front of everyone.I said: u wan to kill me isit.kill lar..now i walk infront the car,hit me wit the fucking car lar,Diu! then she looked at me. I was like,please really get a life lar. I know the wold "get a life" is rude, But i'm sorry Jeffrey i really cant stand wat she's doing .so i just yell at her.get a life and i walk in to the school directly. everyone is looking at me.Ish!

Then i went in to school to have my dinner or bread first. i was too mad so i just yell all the bad words out just to cool myself down...then i have my bread first angrily! Ish! she really destroy me beautiful morning. then i went yumiko's class to tell her tat i cant go out wit them..i really felt vy sorry to them...i broke my promise...I'm sorry Yumiko Bibi... really vy sorry..tat moment i really feel like cry...i really made them disappointed...then yumiko teman me back to my class. and i tell her everyting about yesterday...i knew tat they are disappionted...i'm really sorry.then i went in to my class ..haha then later i found tat everyone is asking where is Tan Shu Yan where is Tan Shu Yan..hhahah really sweet...melt my heart...hahaha then the first period no teacher..then we chat chat chat all rubbish...hahah then i make a promise wit my monitor, if she could fold 520 heart for her boyf in two months time i'll belanjar her eat westen food..lol...hahahhaa..damn cute she really pui me gila..hahahah Then i see she keep fold fold fold .two days only fold about 21 or 26 hearts only..pite her lar...then she say she dun think tat she could finish it in two months time cause is going to have our mid year exam...haha then i played her..u study de mie ?then she look at me...damn cute.hahah then i help her out ...

Then we have our BM lesson..felt boring really vy boring..cant the teacher shut up for a day?? Ish..every day *sayang sayang* her sayang means bit..Please lar really vy stupid one lar she..ish!!!! then i said cant she just shut up just a day..please really vy anoyying...todays lesson..was...mari betulkan jawapan...muka surat bla bla bla..then i turn to the page...

Cindy: teacher mark adi lor...
Moganavali: i know but u all stupid girls din mark..
Cidny: we stupid ?then u more stupid lor..u're our teacher ma
Moganavali:....
Ok mari kita sambung...
then talk talk talk..
then later all annoying noise coming out from her mouth.
then me,ee huey.nicole.tong. All *shhhh her at the same moment.she get wat we're talking about then she just shut up..

At last. break time...
yeah...walking though yumiko's class.=) find her to apologize ....hahah then chat chat chat call she to hang next Sunday...really wish i could go finger cross people!!!hahahaha.then went back to class study study...

Now this was the most amazing & funny part=)
Hahaha,after school...we decided to go to the library. study there...Ish! dun feel like going home so stay at school study=) hahaha then i ate many thing cause i'm going to eat at night...so i stuff many food into my stomach..then we went to the library..haha on the way to library...the Yumiko ask me ..are we going to the store?? hahaha i knew her heart flew to the store and stick there...hahaha then i say ok lar we go at 2pm...so we study study...hahaha i dun think tat we're studying...cause tat moment we just laughing non stop....gossip..hahah we're bitch tat moment.then yumiko was sitting beside me...she's copping geo projek...hahah then i go move her hand.hahah then we chat chat then we laugh laugh...hahahah funny sei..then i ask then when are we going the sore..haha OMG! my heart flew to the store too ..hahah then we say scare no time come back then we quick quick get out from the library...on the way to our bags.we were thinkg how we got to the store... then the yumiko say i black lor i black lor...hahaha then i say sit taxi lur..but u pay i just brought 2 bugs...hahah then bibi sasy i only got 50 sen so yumiko's the richest here=)so she paid..hahaha then we walk out the school..then the yumiko keep saying vy hot vy hot ...i dun wan to walk then i say take taxi lar..hahaha then we walk back to school..erm not walikng is running hahaha then we saw ataxi outside out school .then yumiko forget to bring money hahaha really cute♥ then she run to her bag and take..then when she run out we looked out the gate..the taxi gone adi...then we laugh so loud haha everone is looking at us..haha then i and bibi say lets call taxi..hahah but too high adi we forget the num hahha..so we keep guessing wats the num...hahah wat 321355,2534245,21367,311431,hahahha really damn sor ....really forget adi.then ask a girl sitting there looking at us...hahaha laughing at us...i ask her.zhiyi taxi wan num jor ?then she say 2534188..hahaah then we nah!!!! hahahahah then i and bibi run the phone *dun know wat we call adi..as long there's is a phone..hahah then we run there there damn far and hot..hahah then the yumiko yell again..there's is a taxi outside..hhah then we laugh like hell..hahahahah♥ we quickly run out..then when we run out tat time many ppl following us...then we tot the taxi ppl wan then we walk to the taxi no one..lets rush in...hhahah then faster get into the car then i say: uncle the store please..then reach the store she paid then money...haha damn funny when we walk in we keep say wa so cool so cool..outside so hot so hot...hahha then i go buy *star paper* i wan to give it to someone...hahhaa but yumiko say its sure is for Jeffrey..ahahahah then i say no..jeffrey got another present more nicer one..♥ then she jealous..keep say everyday jeffrey jeffrey..hahahahaa yea i love him so wat?lolz..i love u two...hahaha then we see many thing say wan but wan buy but no money jor..hahahahha ..yumiko saw an egg...vy cute...when it grow bigger the brunch will had words on it..lol fucking cute.hahaha the i say u buy lar we try at home..haha then she say i wan sit taxi back...hahahaha then din buy jor scare no money..hahahhaha so we walk walk walk bibi say tat she thirsty hahahha...so we buy drinks wit bibi..hahah buy jor coke..damn expansive lur...sorhai..Rm2 of one small cup wor..three person also not enough to drink hahah then we take turns..hahah bibi once.yumiko once then the last is me//but i felt i just drank four times haha the rest the finish it..lol...hahahahahaah then we walk back to school cause no phone cant call 2534188 come fatch us so we walk back..bibi yumiko keep say hot black hahaha damn cute lar them...then we going to reach school the yumiko run back to the door then and i was laughing...hahah den we quickly run to canteen buy drinks ..when we sit down we felt tat vy hot..so went bangsa sit hahahaha...there cool cool geh..vy song then we sit there chat hahaha chat chat chat the yumiko keep looking atthe mirror..
Cindy:Leng bao lur..
Bibi:havent picha
Cindy:tat means she' not pretty enough hahahahaha(kidding)
Bibi: so bad lar u..
hahaah dun take it serious yumiko i'm just joking around..=)
Then i felt hot..then we walk walk till kolam there and i sit on the floor cause vy cool there hahah we chat many things about yumiko's bro..hahaha she dislike her girlf.haha but her bro also damn cham one...haiz.human is like tat their gredy.then chat chat her walk back to canteen sit there..haha chatting chatting i and bibi saw three bird flying together..the jump also together ahha i felt it cute...hahaah then we take as it was us..yumiko..bibi..and cindy...friends forever/then suddenly one of the brid flew away.so only felt two bird...so one bid fly and the other bird follow together hahah then i say the one who follow is a male.hahah then bi and miko say u dun let girl chase boy ah..hahha then we laugh laugh laugh..Then is time to go home le...having much fun wit u guys..really vy fun...all the laughter and everything u guys gave me..i will never ever forget...is always deep in my heart,as usually...i love u two just excatly how i love jeffrey♥

xoxo.jeff.bi.miko♥
love u till the end...

writen by: Cindy♥

Needs u..

I need u baby :)
Jeffrey.Bibi.Yumiko..
dun ever try to leave me..u three are vy important to me..

Hmmm...

Suddenly felt tat some ppl really think tat they are vy big or famous.They really tot tat their Boyf are vy damn famous.So they think tat they're pretty,glamorous or whatever.Please!Stop being a bitch!!You're a bitch!dont ever think tat he is famous so you could talk like big sister or wat!Seriously,you're not famous at all.!please stop acting like a bitch!Really dun ever think tat you're big.Someday,someone will really give u a big slap! if they really can't stand u anymore.

P.S. I din't mention who was it.So just dun think tat it was u..Tea.maybe someday she would be seeing this but,I guess she will not notice tat actually i'm talking about her..

Back to my life
Felt lazy today.dont even feel like doing anything too.Actually,its kinda moody.I found tat Jeffrey is not going out wit me next monday.I had not seen him like a month.but feels like a year..I miss u vy much.I need you... but u told me tat ur're not going,really felt dissapionted.I really wish tat you're here.I wan you to stand rite infron of me now.but i know it will not happened.Just forget bout it..
I miss u jeffrey...


Dear bibi wong=)
hope u see this...
darling ah..why u yao emo gem???wat ntg to chat wit us?/u wan die ke??cannot like tat say lar..we are best friend.u wont lose ur..really..i wont leave u behinde...we love u...Monday is the day we going to chat! sing!dance! like hell..so dun unhappy...after monday u will be even happy..trust me...i need u=)



XOXO.jeffrey.bibi.yumiko

FELT IN LOVE.

Suddently felt in love with this song...*What you waiting for-mizz nina*
damn nice..
really vy nice...
Enjoying...
today felt like ignoring everyone damn sien in school.
Study~Study~
suddently remind me tat i havent finish Jeffrey's suprise...
OMG!!
i'm gonna faint hahhaa...
need to think wat i'm gonna write...
lol...
i love u baby...really love u deeply..please..
yumiko and bibi wong..dun be jealous..
i love u two more...

xoxo.

14/4/10

Today felt happy cause i tot tat i could hang wit yumiko them on monday..
but when i get home ..
i got a bad news..
my mom would not allow me to go...
ish...
i wonder...
i still had my dad...
yea ask him..or maybe beg him...uh uh...
wish me damn myne luck people!!
finger cross please....
i reall wan to go jusco wit them....!!!

Life directions...

Today was having Chinses lesson...
I felt annoying cause I'm not interested in chinses at all.Please!
But I found tat I'm into the chapter...
The chapter is about *Life Directions*
Life will never ever turn back for u or anyone.
If u had a changes to get back to standed one..will u??
& my answer is no...
i prefer the life now.=)

Life will alwayls have a directions.

when Someday u felt tat ur lost or maybe u went to the wrong way ...
dun worrie...
since u had already walked,just keep walking...
till u see another conjunction stop there and think again..

Dun ever try to walk back
once u walked back the road it will not be the road tat u walk the firit..
Just like us...
once u turn back.its alreadly not the first *u ...

Life is like this...
once u wan to make up ur mind...
think properly before u do anything.
once u did...
i will never ever turn back again...

xoxo...

everything is fine=)

BIBI YUMIKO..
sorry abour everything..
i dun mean to be mad at you two..
really .
tis few days i yao vy no mood..so i din reply ur blog msg..
really sorry...
i'm not mad at you two at all..
pls dun think to much..
i love u guys much...
really vy much...

the end

I guess this is the end of the story.
Saying good bye...
Bye to everything...

10/4/10

Thing morning..
Was smsing wit Ziheng.
suddently a msg was send to my phone...
i tot it was u...
but i really dissappiont me...
fine i knew u wont be u...

forget bout it.
i wont reply anymore.

last night.

He seems like ignore me...
Find..
I cant do anything.
Really.
dun know wat to do anyone...

Hide in the bed .crying again...
she seems tired about everything.
Suddently she have lost her frieds and now her lover...
if she could choose...
She would give up everything.

你还会像以前酱爱我吗？
你还会像以前酱疼我吗?
你还会像以前酱想我吗？？
你还爱我吗？
Suddently felt like asking u.
i felt like knowing the answer.

9/4/10

I've lost them..
why must u hurt me like tat???
u make me cry again..Jeffrey.
lost them and now u...
i really vy dissappinoted.

8/4/10

DONT know why..feel like blogging today.
but i cant online so i type it the next day..
Hmmm...today's mood was bad...everything is just vy bad.
Suddenly felt that I'm lonely...
I wish i could just end this up...
really frustrated...Cant sleep.
thinking.
what could i do.Crying.just to fix things back...
I'm terribly lost.
where should i go now?
i've last my directions..
Try to feel happiness but i realise i cant smile like i use to do,anymore
I cant trust anyone anymore...included you
Really..
Dont make me hate u please.
I really dun want to...
tired about it.


Look through the window like i always do..
dreaming...
better then thinking stuff...
make me even feel like crying...
went to school without mood.
did everything wrong...

*PROMISE
tis world pls dun come out from ur mouth easly...
I'm like a kid..
once u promise dun try to break it.
u break it i'll hate u deeply...
dun make me hate u cause i dun wan to...

I will not find another directions anymore..
cause i felt that if there is a new directions and when i walk through it..
i felt even worst...
well..
i guess i will just stay here and keep to be lost.
i will not find a new directions...
friendship really is nothing.
end it up please...



P.S : Someday.u'll see this.Jeffrey.Please dun say tat i'm emo..Cause tis is wat i am.

最后。。

BIBI WONG my dear darling.

Aiyor..
sei poh u...
dun every time think tat u nothing to say lar..
next time i will talk to u more..lolz..
mou gem think
i angry geh...we are best friend rite???
sorry tat we din talk to u much...
i promise u tat i wont dump u behind...
we walk we walk together..
we talk we talk together..
we smile we mush shine together...
kay??
we are best friend rite???
u know that we love u...
pls..
dun ever try to think tat u are not important..
to me...
u are vy important..
i love u just like how i love jeffrey..
u are as important as jeffrey..
baby...
please be happy..


ILY&INY

XOXO
BIBI WONG

cry:(

Crying last nite..
scare to loose jeffrey...
scare tat mummy will do something to us...
i really dun wan to loose jeffrey..
i love him...
i wan him.
i need him...
i cant live without him...
really cant!

Crying non stop..
missing him...
wish he's rite beside me:(
i could hug him tight tight!
i would never let go.

xoxo jeffrey ong

no modd le:(

Die lor...mommy know i pak tou jor..

Shit..

Scare..

Scare wat?

scare loose jeffrey..

Dying..

Cant sleep...

keep thinking..

really stupid..brainless...

Cant study even...

i really dun understand why must she do such things to me..

make my mood bad...

cant even relax...

Damn fucking annoying.





Do u think tat i should allow jeffrey to view my profile???



I miss him..

as usual..

miss him till i die..

love him so much!

i need him now...

hahaha..i love my friends.

YUMIKO! BIBI WONG!
i love damn much!
u know..whenever i was wit u guys..
i really smile like i always do...
just llike how i smile to jeffrey=)
you two are are secound thing tat i cant loose in my life!
first jeffrey=)
secound both of u!!


i love u guys damn much much!!!

xoxo

agian friendship=)

In my life..
i have always think tat there is no true friend in this world..
especially i came to this school..
I'm starting to hate this school..
But i had not tot that i could find such friend...
well..
i was 14 last year..
i came to this class 2u..
at first,i hate tat stupid class..
but later..i felt tat i'm in love wit it..
cause i had meet some friends=)
previously,
i knew them...but not tat friendly..
Yumiko.Ah teng. bibi wong..many more..
my true friends was chao chao elaine and hooi fen...
We are the most fantastice friends...
but things going to wrong..
We are not wat i was saying*friends* anymore...



Ah chao had change..
i wonder.. i use to believe her...i told her all my stuff...
but not i found tat i cant even believe wat she was saying...
wat ever comes ut from her mouth was just lies...
i wonder why must she be tat jealouse??
wat ppl have.she also need to have..
she tot that she was the cleveriest in the world...
but pls..
if u think tat u are the cleveriest then u dont need to go to school anymore..
to me u were nothing.
to u i'm really speechless...
because of u!
i felt tat
friends could never been trust!



later a year...*mens this year...
2010...
i'm close wit yumiko them...
i prefere yumiko teng bibi...
i love them more then ah chow...
we could esily get high...
i'm damn in love wit u guy..seriously...
i could ply wit u just like how i ply wit jeffrey...
to me ..
u all are as improtant as jeffrey...
we laught happily!
ply crazly..
smile shinly!
when i'm wit u guys i could smile like i usually does...
tats why because of u guys...
=)

TO THE FANTASTICE FAMILY=)

YUMIKO.BIBI.AH TEN.ELAIN.HOOI FEN!

Friendship=)

Sometimes.friendship is nothing..
but to me.. It really mean to me..
u say! i could only choose one.Friends? or Boyfriend?
i would not choose.
friends i love them..
boyfriend i love him...
both i love them..


To Yumiko..
sor po...dun ever try to be unhappy i tell u!
we are ur best friend alwayls and 4 ever..
i will never ever leave u behind.
If u feel like crying call me.
I dont promise that i will make u laugh but i can cry with u.
If one day you wan run away.
I dont promise to ask you to stop but i can run with u!
If one day u dont want listen to anyone,call me.
I promise to be there for u but also promise to remain quiet!
But one day if you call and there is no answer,come fast to see me.Perhaps i need u!

hahah yeah..
Oue friendship are 4ever..so!
dont try to get rid of me!!! hahaha...
i'll follow u till the day we die!!!!

yumiko's blog

Mylife. =)

To those bitch!

Some bitch really think tat their vy pretty!
Please lar go to the mirrow and see har lar.
before u say someone!
look through the mirror and look at urself first!
if u are pretty ok just go ahead and say who's ugly!
if ur're not!!
shut the fuking hell up!


Seriously u're not pretty at all!
Stop saying how pretty are u or how cute are u!
Fucked up lar please.
just get off my head and get a life lar..

BITCH!

Ok listen here !! U asshole!
I could tell u tat i'm fucking hate u!
Just fuck off and get a life!!
If u think tat u could leave a guy's heart go ahead and do it!
I dun even fucking care!
BUT!
dun try to mess wit my guy!
If u think tat u're damn pretty,i could tell u tat!
go home and get lost!
Seriously
u're worst then a pig!
there are many girls are even pretty then u!!
BITCH!
Dun try to mess wit me!
wat a lame bitch who did such stupid things!

gossip girl

YOU KNOW YOU LOVE ME♥
XOXO..
GOSSIP GIRL...





YOU KNOW YOU LOVE ME♥
XOXO♥
JEFFREY ONG♥

What A Day=) =)

Hell Yea!
I'm fat! uh.
but!
the fat ass is fatter then me!(muahahahaha)

To the damn fat ass..
could you ply stop act like an ass hole?
and guess what? U do look like them..
Fuck off!!!
I don't wan to see u in my life anymore!!
BITCH!!!just go and get your own life and fuck it!

At last.
is the end of exam..
uh!!!i could sleep tightly...
no worries

10th March

Maths!!!so death..
i really cant answer a question!!
i dun even und wat are theys saying=(
Luckly..
my science do chil me up..
i could almost answer every question...
hahaha.

Haiz..
I feel tat something gonna happened again..
I dun even wan to think about it..

My sick!
belum sembul ni!!
panas sekali...
mahu pengsan!!!

missing jeffrey again..
but he dun know...
=(watever lar..

Its Sunday=)

Officially..
i'm going out tis coming Sunday..
cause it been so long tat i have not seen Jeffrey Ong!!
Missing him deeply.
I went Jusco tis morning.
to get some stuff..
well.replying Jeffrey's msg..
he wanted me to say at Jusco and he come over to see or wat.
But i seriously cant.
cause tomorrow was exam,and my parent would not allow me to stay
he sent me*I DAMN MISS U BABY*
it was so sweet..

Then i went home..
here comes the *devil land*
Study again..
enough of math..
begining wit Sejarah,,
its much better..
I had finish study chapter 1..
it does take my one whole afternoon!
Well studying.
my babe yeeshien just sms me ..
Uh!!Fucking miss her..
could say tat she's the most fantastic girl in the world!
hahaha.

I guess i'm not going to sleep tonight.
Study.


Jeffrey ong!
dun be jealous!
I LOVE U!!

7th march=)

The day befor exam..

emo day//

Sry baby Jeffrey..

I qurrel wit u le..

I din reply him.

Pls dun angry...

u still try to tem me.

U told me tat u're jealouse..

hahaa i love u.

SERIOUSLY!

Love u 99!!

Missing u..

Last Night=)

Last Night
Idid 42 question of MATH!!
Seriously,it did broke my record..
Its MATHS Cindy Tan.u hate it but u done it..
hahahaah..
last night//
My eyes begin to become blur blur blur.
Well.i sms jeffrey and tell him tat i'm lazy,and my eyes were blur..
he wanted me to rest awhile..
but i refuse to rest..
cause i miss him so much!!
Dia memang sayang ku..
aku juga cinta dia..
he teach me the word LMAO!!
it means *laughing my ass out*
hahaha tis word really make me laughing non stop..
hahahaha!!
and tat time..he's vy happy.
cause i'm seriously laughing like hell!!
ahha..

Later,
I send him a msg tat really came out from my heart and it says
Hahaha.I Miss You.I Need You.I Wan You.I Love You.I Heart You!
And he replied.
among u type these words..
do you know which one really touch my heart??
he said *I Need You*
tis words are powerful then *I Love You*
he love tis word so much after i said it out!
he's Cute.
Wat a sweet night..

Seriously.
I Do Need Him.in my life.
he's the one who make me smile.sad.
give me happiness.sadness.
give me everything i wan.
becouse of him..
I begen to love myself more=)

I Wan A New Phone...

Previously..I would wan an Sony Ericson Aino..
I'm in love wit tat damn phone..uh!
My stupid phone keep turning on and turning off all the time..
Really Cant tahan anymore...
Damn Fucking Phone!!

Tis morning woke up at 8 something..
missing Jeffrey once again..=) =)
he sms me to sleep longer not to wake up early.
he went swimming at Stadium..
Just behind my house..
and he wanted to come to my house.
Just to look at me ..
Awww.he's sweet.
but he din come..
cause my mom is around.

Secondly,he told me tat his chin is big..
i was like OMG!
he say tat the bee sting his chin yesterday..
and its painful right now..
Tat minute!Tat second!
my heart is pain tat my baby is suffering..
I wanted him to see a doctor..
but he refuse to go.

He said tat just abit of pain he could tahan..

What a CUTE guy!!!

I LOVE HIM!!

And he knows!

Thirdly..

Wat a boring day was today.

Well..

Its going to have an exam on Monday..

And wat am i doing here??

Writing blog.waste time.FB!

Seriously facebook is not tat fun anymore..

its kinda boring now-a-days..

Feel like quieting ..

To Jeffrey Ong!!

I love u no matter wat happens..

........Beloved wife........

Argghhh!!Seriously i'm damn fucking angry!

At first..wat the hell is all tis..
I hate ppl who just like to broke their stupid fucking promise tat they make..
If they think tat they cant do it..just dun fucking promise..
NOW!!
I really speechless..
really fucked up!!
wat am i going to tell them./.
seriously i'm damn fucking angry now..
i'm sure tat i'm not going back to kl tat time..
seriously no..
really fucked up lar..
fucker.

I LOVE U=)

i'm offcially miss u you my baby jeffrey ong!!

birthday..my sweet fifteen and his sweet seventeen=)

Miss Him le :(

昨晚。。
我在钢琴室哪里，，
看见他。。
我好想他。。
好想抱他！
可是我不敢看着他。。
我很在意，
他昨天说过的东西，，
要回家前，
他和我谈天。。
可是我没什么说话。。
他问我会不会介意。一个星期没信息/
其实，，
我很在意。。
感觉上，好像分了手将！！
我不要那种感觉。。
我不要孤单一个人//
我不要没了他///
我不要他不再爱我了。。
我就是不要失去它。。
好爱他。。
到了晚上。。
突然电话响了。。
他打给我了。。
我已接电话。。
他就说他很想念我。。
其实，，
我很想和他说我爱他。。
还是没说了。。
说了可能他不相信我。。
昨晚，还谈得满开心的。。
也算是和好了。。
可是感觉怪怪的。。
我感觉到他爱我的程度，便少了。。
我便问他。。
你又感觉有点不爱我了吗？？
他回我说没有。。
还是一样爱。。
希望，如此吧。。
我不想再跟他吵架了。。
我真的不像没有了他。。
他是第一个男生。。令我将爱他。。
我也没试过将去爱一个人。。
从今天起。。
我应该要给他所要的吧？？

HERE COMES MY MOOD :(

Febuary 25th..
the day out of love..

是我的脾气吗??
还是我不够让他？？
正搞不懂。。
我不够认识他吗？？
还是我不够爱他？？
难道他感觉不到我的爱吗？？
怎么了？？
我哭了。。
我好想他，可是！！
他没信息我..
为什么他还是不相信我只爱他一个呢？？
总是爱说我和其他男生信息。。
我的心很痛。。
他知道吗？（不知）
昨晚，我哭到很夜。。
他盖我电话。。
感觉被人丢弃了。。
他说过不会丢下我一个。。
昨天他做了！
哭哭下。。
我尽然睡早了。。
他信息我//
和我说，
我们还是一个星期别信息吧！
等我考完试再找你吧。下个星期四！
我真得很怪自己。。
为什么睡早！！
如果我还没有睡。。
可能把他哄回来了。
当我看见他的信息时。。
眼泪都不受控制的流了。。
我就将去学校了。。
可能是我自己在骗自己吧。。
一回家就没事了。
他会找回我的。。
还真傻。。
在学校。。
朋友问回我怎样跟他相见的。。
我还真傻/
跟他们一起谈得好开心。。
想起我们以前怎样认识，过后吵架，暧昧，好朋友。。
还蛮傻的的。。
我的朋友都说我发傻了。。
可能是我太过分了。。
说一下很过分的话。。
搞到他很生气吧。。
我该去哄他吗？？
只个问题我一直都在问自己。。
从学校问到现在！！
道歉？？
可是他说了。。
一个星期后在信息我。。
可能他要时间冷静把。。
还是别烦他饿。。
突然很想和他说我很想他。。
回到家。。
赶快开电话。。
怎知。。
今早的信息他也没回。。
我的心很痛。。
眼泪也流了。。
陈淑谚！！
够了！！
别再哭了..
你已经哭得好几天了。。
也够了吧？？
再哭眼睛真的要肿了！！
在房里。。
一直做功课，不要让自己在想将多！！（又来骗自己了）
怎知！
手不听话。
一直要看电话。。
看他有信息我吗？？
唉！
没啦。
怎知。。
突然电话响了。。
他信息我。。
我还蛮开心的。。
怎知。。
只是问我一样东西就不复了。。
再也没信息我了。。
怎么办？/
眼泪又来了。。
忍着吧。。
说过了习惯。
就要做到吧。。
怎么办。。。
想他了。。
我可以忍到下个星系四吗？？？
我可以吗？？
眼泪又来了！
我爱他！
真的好爱他。。
希望他知道吧。


心情快回来吧。。
我不想整个星期多不开心的。。
就好乖乖的等他信息我吧。。
我会等他。。
我一定会等他。。

怎么了？/
突然感觉自己的华语了很多。。
哈哈。。
第一次想用华语来写。。
对了
陈淑谚！
笑吧！
那才像你。。
乖乖的等吧！

to jeffrey ong.

Today I caught myself smiling for no reason... then I realized I was thinking about you ...

10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why

.FuneralYears
passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

HER LOVE LIFE!!

LOVE ME
STAY

HATE ME
FUCK OFF!!!

BITCHES
STAY AWAY FROM ME

BABIES
UR MINE

haha 8-jan-10

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i still love JEFFREY ONG!!! as usual..
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ish!! stomach pain leh.got air inside...
dame san fu!!!!!
STUPID BROTHER SO NOISE...
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DUN KNOW WAN TO WRITE LEH...HAHAH.
she kinda random today...dun know wat happend to she...haha..
she means"cindy"

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